MEUOMENTUM: Kimmo Alakunnas

We met at 2004 when we were both applying to study dance in Theater Academy of Helsinki. We got in – and instantly became like partners in crime. He was my shoulder to cry, laugh, fight and lean on the whole six year long journey through graduating as choreographers from the same Academy we once applied in on 2010. Also that we did together, the becoming Masters of Arts. Then we went in our own ways, still sending weekly memes and gossips to each other. I really missed him those years a part. He went on building his dance film career, acting on multiple theaters, creating his practice and also studying international business. When he asked me to work with him on his upcoming piece I didn’t need to think twice. I don’t know what I’ve missed the most – working and creating with him or just playing, laughing our asses off and goofing around with him anyway now we are reunited again. We are currently premiering with his new choreography “Pohjanpalo/The Base of the Fire” in Turku. The premier is tomorrow (5.4.2019 Tehdas Theater, Turku) and we’ve been working with it the whole spring. He was the first to ask me to come and participate as a professional dancer (ever) in his piece and in a way changed my life quite delicately. His courage, vulnerability, messy creativeness and ridiculously dark humor has always inspired me. It’s a treasure to have those people in your life who you can be completely yourself with and they don’t judge you no matter what. We’ve cried, laughed, fought, made up, got wasted, danced and created together since 2004 and I really hope we’ll continue to do so. If you don’t know his work yet come to see us tomorrow or get to know him HERE:


Kimmo Alakunnas | dancer, choreographer, actor, dance film director


1. Who are you and watcha doin’?

I’m a messy choreographer and dancer and my passion is in the dance film field. I’m also a chairman in Loikka dance film festival in Helsinki and we are the only festival in Finland that is specialized to dance films. I have worked in city theaters and travelled around the Europe with my dance art and teaching programs.


2. How would you describe yourself as an artist?

My focus has always been in directing movement to individual and intimate direction and as a choreographer I give dancers a change to work with their own personal experience and movement knowledge into a chosen direction and theme. I’d love the performer to live the movement in a moment and to explore him or herself now in this particular moment. I want the performer to have the courage to show who they really are, not just to show how pro they are with their body movement and techniques. Dancing is for every age and body type and it’s a whole life journey to yourself.

3. What moves you and what makes you wanna create?

I want to study humanity and connection between us. What makes us humans and how we evolve in the future?  I love art in every form and shape and my ideas to my own art might emerge from visual arts, music, fashion, human relationships or from the nature. A rock whispers me: ”I’m not a rock what you’re watching. Open your eyes, dummy.”


4. What made you begin to work with dance/movement and film?

I am very visual in my art and I fell in love to a magical realism, which can be described as my work in general. In film you can play with reality and antirealism in many different ways and you can see inside performers head and heart. Viscera is fascinating.


5. What is your favourite dance film?

I love dance films and especially short artsy ones. I have seen a lot in our dance film festival and some of what I’ve seen has left a void in my heart – like “Intrinsic Moral Evil” (dir. Harm Weistra, Netherlands) and “Off Ground” (dir. Boudewijn Koole, Netherlands). I’m also a musical lover so old Hollywood films are evergreen. You can’t get more antirealist than the reality in Hollywood production. Or in USA in general.

6. You’ve already worked quite a while as a multi-artist – what kind of challenges you’ve find and maybe also won along the way?

Bitch better have my money, gurl. It is hard to do Contemporary art in a mainstream world, But it’s even harder to get someone to finance it. We are losing talent and time when we say that art is too expensive. You can’t buy that ice latte without using someones art (*sips some tea and giving double eyeS closing signifiCUNTly*).

7. What are you working with currently?

I’m working on my new dance piece “Pohjanpalo/The Base of The Fire” with my ridiculously talented coworker Katti Meu. The piece is premiered in Tehdas teatteri, Turku and it’s about our relationship to the Nordic nature. How light inspires us but also what is the nature of humans? The work is a collaboration between movement, film, light and music. It’s quite physical so we shall have to werk it!

8. What is your next move?

I’m gonna go and see the spring and fall in love. Again. Then I might write something or just chill and wait if I win a lottery ( and by that I mean grant to a new art piece).
9. Any recommendations to get inspired during this transition from winter to spring?
Bish, go out! Don’t stay inside anymore. See people, show them your eye bags and bad hair day. Take an ice latte and watch how nature is waking up. If you can’t afford ice latte, go get a job.
Cover photo: Niko Räty


I’m dreaming in pictures, kinetic moments rebirthing new emotional landscapes, past shadows transforming into particles of light and resilience.

It was never suppose to be easy. I get it now. I get it but I need to reorganize myself every morning to really trust it and to not be afraid when again all the emotions will wash over me still. But yeah, it took a while. It took a while to get in to the same page with myself, with the inner being nesting somewhere deep down in my core, the one that holds access to the past, the present and the future. That deep inner knowing reminding me constantly; all the shit that I went through wasn’t for nothing. It was about to create something beautiful. It was about to build incredible futuropias and it will be my access to the ancient wisdom of self healing, of trusting life, of real compassion and empathy, of deeper connections with others – of the path of my own and of the futurebeings we are about to create together.

It’s never for nothing. The struggles we go through. Trust me, never. It all just boils down to the question of are you willing to sit with it? With the pain? With the uncertainty? Are you willing to step in to the unknown with the pain and see how it transforms, particle by particle? There is never knowing how long it will take and there’s never knowing what forms it’ll take while travelling through you. But I don’t know any other way to do the alchemy work. To really mould and shift energies, decoding ancient patterns and reframing the pain to be part of the story. A relevant part of it. The story of becoming. The story of becoming you and to the story of owning your voice – carving space for your existence. Your unique being as a part of the universal symphony.

It just turned to September and already this year has been incredible. With alllll the feels. I can’t remember a time I was so full of life. I’ve also never been this scared before and faced with total unknown while stepping into this new era of living, working, creating and existing without borders. This new era of fluidly organizing myself around the structures of the decaying old formative/normative ruins of “how things are done” or better yet how they used to were done. Never the less it’s scary and shaky but it’s also one hundred percent worth of it all. Stepping into this new way of being and creating my life as I go I’ve stumbled on all kinds of absurd and simultaneously life-giving opportunities and situations. Few of these have paved my way into new adventures and couple of them literally have changed my life.

I’d like to highlight this one particular entity and playground here because it’s something that still resonates throughout my bones and veins. It has also been something that made this becoming month’s new adventure possible. You’ll never know who you’ll end up meeting, encounter with – you’ll never know how your story is about to continue if you don’t take a chance and show up for it. So I did show up. Regardless how scary it first felt like, to invest (financially, energetically) in this already uncertain life situation that I’m in currently felt like a huge stretch but intuitively I also knew that I will do it. After a month long inner struggle I finally decided to accept this position that I was given to – to participate in the MODULE held and facilitated by this gorgeous human being and dance artist Sidra Bell. I participated not really knowing where I was about to dive in. That particular week in CPR New York served as a changing point for something so much bigger on my journey and path here. And it definitely was one of the most emotional dance related experiences that I’ve ever had a chance to have. It somehow (magically) shifted a lot of stagnant energy in me and as it worked as a rebirthing nest of my artistic path it also worked as a tomb of my old shedded skin that I got to leave behind to continue my path just a little bit lighter. It was a long time coming. I just didn’t know or guess that this situation and opportunity would be the one to do the trick.

There is something beautiful and deeply vulnerable in coming back to something. For me entering a space where I was invited to take part of the dance, the creation, the process, the sharing, the play and the practice was intimidating because I knew in a way I was coming home I just didn’t know how it would feel like. I didn’t know if I could handle it. I didn’t know how much the past would haunt me and would I find a way to update, upgrade, evolve with this form of creating anymore. I have to mention that this whole year, me moving back to Berlin and getting in to the grind again has been one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. It also brought me back to the dance studio, to the regular training sessions and back to my craft. But this residency/laboratory/experimental playground was still something different. Deeper, more intimate – an alchemy work.

I’m still blown away how she (Bell) holds the space for people to enter. How naturally she gives us, the participants, an opportunity to carve our own path but still be part of others journeys, simultaneously. Working with her I understood how much I love words. How they carry energy, how they manifest the future and how they draw the present moment out of us. Dancing became singing, movements molded into poems, encounters with others washed away the past and created something more relevant – opened up the now in me. Made me remember that we are one.

It felt like a prayer. It felt like an answer. It felt like a beginning. Dying and being reborn again. And from those utopias and momentary realms that we created together, all of us sharing that sacred space, I found people, incredible artists that I will continue working with in this becoming autumn and hopefully longer. Sharing a space and a journey like that is life changing in a way. It leaves marks, languages unknown written all over your bodymindsoul and after that nothing is the same.

That’s the beauty of life ever changing. It shifts and turns. And it’s not ours to control. But we can learn how to float, it just needs a hell of a lot of letting go and release work. And it needs us to step in to the flow even though it’s scary.

I knew it wasn’t for nothing. It was just the beginning. And as it was a beginning of something special and personal it was also the beginning of my new project “FUTUREDANCES”. With that project I’m traveling back to New York next and from there to Pittsburgh. I’m invited to take part of this artists residency in the CMOA, the Carnegie Museum of Arts with an amazing artists working with me and from there the project travels to the next residency it was invited to, in India. So stay tuned because it my dears is on now.

Thank you for coming to my “ted talk”, it became quite a long post this time but hey it’s been months so bear with me. If you made it this far – u golden.


Photo: Umi Akiyoshi Photography

February 2019 Inso of the month


Every month I’ll present an artist/maker/doer/thinker/concept/happening that gives me lyfe right now. I hope you’ll find something new here or something that resonates. If you have something cooking and you want to participate I’m always open for recommendations and dialogue! Sharing is caring.


This power house and soul on fire is a perfect example why I’m convinced that we’ll have hope for the future. She makes fierce and vulnerability coexist so easily. A golden example and inspiration how to be active and still let yourself feel through the process, how to be personal but still understand the power and value of community, how to be the voice and still human in all its beauty. It’s the honesty in her that moves me, it makes me wanna tap into my own inner power and join forces. We need creative, limitless minds like her to lit the fire in all of us and start working our way towards a better, more compassionate, inclusive and equal future. If you don’t know her yet – now is the time!


Ajak Majok | dancer, dance teacher, creative mind, writer, activist, politician


1. Who are you and watcha doin’?

My name is Ajak Majok, and I’m a freelancer at creative fields, and I do some “real work” as a salesperson. This means I dance, teach dance, create fashion, do Stand up, and write. Oh and I do some politics, hopefully more in the future.


2. What made you fall in love with dance?

Love for the movement of the body, and the rhythm of the beat made me fall in love with dance. I was raised as Sudanese as possible growing up in Finland. Which meant never ending parties quite too often, and dancing all the time. Everywhere. Dance is the way my people live and express love for life, so it has always been a love of my life in a sense.

3. How does dance and activism work together in your everyday life?

I describe activism to myself as a series of acts towards an ethically shared goal. The core thing about activism, to me, is never ending movement. An effort to not stay still, in whichever non desired structural behavior or so, but not to stay still. To me dance is the same. Dance is movement of the body, the spirit, emotions, and/or the sound. Nowadays politics occupy most of my time, so I’t has become my way of being an activist. Whenever – which is every hour and a half or so, my body starts to ache I “cure” it by dancing a little. It gets my energy flowing and it gives me the power to keep acting towards a better future for us.


4. What made you activate in the politics?

Too much injustice that I saw being inflicted on people through political decisions. I’m talking about putting people in the second degree level of education, in an unequal position because of massive budget cuts on mainly vocational studies. I’m talking cruel racism, sexism, homophobia, transphobia, Islamophobia – in the parliament with massive affects on us, but non to very little to the perpetrators. It’s quite dark to say, but anger activated me. But it is hope that makes me want to keep acting, hope and the trust in all of us that we can do better. And when we just get the silenced and the allies to find their voices and use it, we will rise.


5. How would you describe yourself as a politician?

Intense. There is a funny story behind this; I attended a public debate a few days ago, and someone from my team told me afterwards ” Ajak you nailed it, everybody could see all your emotions and micro aggression from your face, but that’s you and it was awesome!” It’s funny because in my head I restrained myself, and kept a pokerface the whole time. But yeah. When I speak about something it means a shit ton to me, and I’ll go through rain and storm to make a change on the matters I am passionate about.

6. What kind of futuropia would you dream of?

My futuropia is intersectional AF. It’s very simple; in my futuropia everybody are respected for who and what they are, humans animals and nature. Everybody has all the necessities of a good life, and there is no gazillionaires. For me personally, I could dream of the things that I want to do in life, without having to think about the most violent – non stop bullshit of my life, racism. It’s a bit sad that it’s so simple.

7. What gives you lyfe right now?

Rants give me LYFE! I love ranting, and expressing myself in a such bold way. Also memes. Always memes. This intro about me has been a bit on the sad and dark side, but really I’m quite full of joy most of the time. That is because I rant all the shit away. Also sometimes I use a lot of curse words. Do as I say, not as I do kids 😄 And once more – memes.

8. Any good tips to survive the cold in Helsinki?

This is hella unprofessional and I think I’m breaking all of the unwritten rules of politics- that I don’t know of yet. But whenever I’m feeling a little chilly, I listen to the National Coalition parties outputs. Heats up my blood real good. As I’m writing this our minister of interior – form Kokoomus, is planning on re-colonizing Africa with most of the other EU partners. I’m writing an intense and looong rant about it so people will see- or not, why I say what I say.
Cover photo: @shoothayley
Profile photo: Remu Karhulahti

Daydreaming as a practice

They said it might be harmful, dangerous even.

I say it is life giving and vital.

And I’m excited that there is more and more new research backing my feels up.

I’ve always been a daydreamer. When life got particularly challenging couple of years (maybe more) back it was the only thing I had energy for. I literally stayed in bed for hours, sometimes days and just daydreamed what I wanted to do when I’ll have myself somehow together again and when I’ll have energy, courage and self-reliance again. It took some time. More than I had planned on. I can actually see a little sinkhole on my mattress today reminding me of all the heavy dreaming that I’ve done in my resent past. Mostly sitting in my bed, under the covers and staring out of the window or just the opposite wall.

For me it wasn’t like I didn’t try (I’m pretty sure we all actually try our hardest all the time, even though it doesn’t look or feel always like it). But every time I tried to outrun myself, hurry to be ready to jump on all those things and ideas I’d been daydreaming of – the time just wasn’t right. My body responded instantly. I got fatigued and needed to crawl back to my daydream-pit to sit with all these impulses rising inside just a little longer.

Little by little my body and especially my spirit started to recover again. It needed all that rest. And it most definitely needed all that dreaming. You see when you let your mind wander it goes to places you didn’t even know exists. If you give yourself time to actually just daydream without an instant meaning or purpose it will find a new one, something that might be life altering for you.

We complain that we don’t have time for anything these days but what we actually are missing is the dreaming. Maybe because it’s also scary. Maybe it will show you something you weren’t ready for? Maybe it will show you a new path of life? Of how you work? Or with who you might actually want to spend your time with? Maybe it will show you your new calling or tell you that you’ve been living a lie? But would you rather not know though?

I count myself lucky that I didn’t have any other choice but to sit in my daydream-pit and wander. It felt useless and partly horrible at that time. I felt that I was stuck and it would be easier to just vanish. It’s hard to be useless, unproductive these days when it’s coded so deeply in our system to act otherwise. But what was really happening for me was kind of a rebirth. I’m pretty sure that before butterflies break out of their cocoon, they just daydream about their colours, wings and how they’ll get only TENS ACROSS THE BOARD when they’ll get out. And when they’re ready they’ll transform and let themselves be free.

My daydreaming has always somehow been connected with my intuition. They work together as a pretty damn good team. I can feel new path unfolding and now I know I’ll have the courage to say yes. I already did. It doesn’t mean that it isn’t scary, it just means I’ll do it anyway.




Photos: Roza Coco Ahmad


To my moving body – my fluid home

I feel like I’ve been in a passageway.

Gone through some transformation rite.

I’ve tried to write about it, vocalise it, somehow articulate it but I just haven’t had any words for this yet. I strongly feel though that now it’s the time that I’m gonna try or at least begin to try to open this process up. Little by little. So wish me luck.

I’ve danced since I was two, probably even earlier. Since that I didn’t stop until shitty things and life situations made me revalue my life completely. So I stopped. Quit. Went on strike. Looking back I feel that I could’ve done that even earlier but I’ve come to trust divine timing so I won’t should’ve/could’ve/would’ve anymore. The strike started couple of years ago and lasted for a while. Until last spring to be exact. Those who have ever suffered anxiety, trauma, depression etc. might get the gist what I mean with this revaluation but also I think all of us go through these rites in our lives where you need to stop and regather yourself even without traumatic events – situations where you need to decide all over what path to take and reconsider the choices you’ve made or are about to make. So maybe this also resonates with you, dear reader.  I’m not so interested on my past anymore (which is a good thing for a change) rather than what it made me realise and also release. I have to say though that I’ve recently found myself in place in my life where I can honestly say that I’m grateful for the struggle, even the horrific moments – I’m grateful for all the obstacles and suffering that made me come back to myself over and over again. Because that was all I had. That’s actually all we’ll ever have and that’s also the only relationship that truly matters but you already probably knew that. I didn’t. Now I do.

That also means the relationship with your body, your vessel of being, your spaceship, your temple, home and the only thing that you’ll actually own here in this life journey – this human experience. When shit happens in our life we might get disconnected from ourselves and also from our bodies. When we start to come back to ourselves the body will remember forever what happened. Even if we don’t. Even if we think that we’ve forgotten already. Our bodies carry everything that has ever happened to us in its memory. These couple of years has taught me that if I want to heal and learn from the struggle it also means I need to rewire my body and practice to release with concrete movement and self care methods (more about that in another blog post I promise) – every single day. So that’s where I began and it felt like learning to walk again.

Funny thing about relearning stuff – there is no space for new revelations to rise unless you make space for it. For me that happened only by releasing and by letting go. And it also meant to let go of something I’ve done since the dawn of days – I had to let go of dancing and me identifying as a professional of anything related to dance and/or dance field. I was in the process of  “heavy release” anyways so it happened kind of organically I think but never the less it was a huge deal – to let go of something that I’ve based almost my whole identity and also my income on. I’m by the way still in this “heavy release” process but I think now it’s more like a daily practice that I use and now it has become like movement and body practice among mental and spiritual one.

I needed that time off. I needed to have the feeling of every meaning, storyline, assumption and attribute to melt away. I needed to shed my skin. Over and over. It felt like peeling off layers. Getting too stuck with the build identity was toxic for me. Not only because of my past but mainly because it got me stuck in this old story that I felt I couldn’t relate to and that weren’t true for me anymore. To not do things that was connected to that storyline anymore I cut myself free from all the false and toxic meanings it had created. That release got me back my power to start from fresh, gave me the courage to look at my life from clear new perspective and start to rewrite my story from more honest place.

I want to point out that now that I’m trying to put my process in to words it might look like it was a neat forward going path but in reality it was pretty chaotic and super messy. It took a shit load of work, energy and time to get in to this point where I can at least somehow describe my journey. I’m still in the middle of it for sure and I know that life will always remain as a work-in-progress but I love that somehow in the middle of the mess it also starts to make sense somehow. On its own weird way.

Back to that “heavy release” process – I started to little by little invite movement back to my life. First it was mainly yoga and such, also a lot of singing and creating with voice (more music coming up btw!) and then after an year or so a bit of improvisation, intuitive and authentic movement practices. It still was a long way to get back in the “work mode” as a dance artist. I guess the main events in this progress was the realisations of me coming back to myself, the first times I felt I was having my own back and raising my voice to back myself up and the realisation of my fluid identity (body & gender). Like I said I’m still in the middle of the process but I strongly feel that it’s good for me as a human being but also as an artist to learn to open up again and to reconnect with outer world with my voice and also with my work. This writing is also a practice of that. So thank You for reading this and letting me share my process even though it’s still very undone.

That brings me to this day (kinda straight forward I know but I’ll go into details more in the future, little by little, baby steps u know). I’m currently working as a professional dancer in an upcoming performance “The Base of the Fire” which will premier in Turku, Finland 7th of April. I’m also moving back to Berlin to work more with movement and performance. So excited to continue my work with interdisciplinary ways. I just took part in this incredible workshop in Eden studios with Christine Bonansea and that was actually also my first audition ever. I was blown away about the level of sharing and inspiration that I got from the whole group. I always thought auditions as competitive and forced events but this was something totally else. It’s a magical thing when artists come together to share and when you cross paths with people who know how to create and hold space for you to rediscover your power and knowledge all over again! I’ve found that all these moments of connection have started to create a new self-reliance and spirit in me. New kind of fire is kindling in me and I can’t wait to see what it will throw on my way next.

Ok, so this was the beginning part of a practice of me learning to open up my process of being and working. I’ll leave you with these precious moments captured on film and wish you fulfilling weekend with your bodymindsoul! The story will continue soon.






Photo: Evgenia Chetvertkova


Photo: Evgenia Chetvertkova



Something precious is bubblig under.

More to come.



December 2018 inspo



Every month I’ll present an artist/maker/doer/thinker/concept/happening that gives me lyfe right now. I hope you’ll find something new here or something that resonates. If you have something cooking and you want to participate I’m always open for recommendations and dialogue! Sharing is caring.


For years I’ve wanted to vocalise more about the people I get to work with now and in my past. I’ve wanted give back, give shout outs and credit for the hard work and effort these people have given me when we’ve co-created some amazing shit and made magic happen. We are living in a time where everything goes pass so quickly. Things we work with takes so much energy and time and when they are released in our collective realm it’s just a flicker and they are gone. It’s easy to forget how much it takes to create and make things happen. All content have serious (wo)man power behind them. Even when we’re stuffed with info and inspos – all of it still has someones heart and soul pressed in it – the music we listen, photos we gather in our dream boards, videos and films we watch, books/articles/poems we read all of them are made by someone and usually with a lot of energy, time, heart and soul. And when talked about heart and soul – this dude is all that. We are almost sister and brother, we share a long history with many many stories but it was just two years ago that we actually started working together. Since that I’ve had the privilege to get to know the artistic side of him. He’s a true visionary, silent wizard and one of the most hard working creatures I’ve ever had the pleasure of know and work with. Things he makes resonates far and because of his humbleness you might have missed that what moved you, stuck with you and inspired you was actually from this ones heart and soul. If you don’t know his work yet – the time is now!

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Jukka Moisio | cinematographer, film artist, director


1. Who are you and watcha doin’?

Who am I? Many things, depending on the point of view. I’m working mostly as a freelance cinematographer on commercials, but sometimes on music videos, short films, documentaries or on video art. I also now and then direct music videos and commercials. I have also worked with TV productions, feature films and in production companies as a lighting technician, gaffer, editor and assistant camera in the early days of my career. I took small steps forward after I graduated and moved from Tampere to Helsinki. Five years ago I moved to Stockholm and a few years later moved back to Helsinki. This autumn I started as a entrepreneur and now work with different production companies in various short-term projects.  If I put it in few words; I love films – short, feature, documentary, art, commercial and music films – film in all variations!


2. What made you fell in love with film?

I’ve always felt big feelings through what I see and hear. I’ve always been quite bad at addressing my thoughts and feelings verbally and seen them visually clear in my head. So it’s been a good way  to communicate some things through film and also visualize what I read or hear. I go through so many feelings when I watch movies and videos. I feel it’s a safe place to process different feelings on the other side of the screen, also the bad ones.


3. What is your ideal setting for film making?

When there’s a good story; an idea or a vision, the setting is what suits to that. There isn’t a setting that fits to everything. And sometimes a setback can be a good accident and you can turn it to your advantage.  I like working with good people, who are passionate and ready to learn new things and that’s the ideal setting, because film making is always teamwork and when you’ve got a good team everything will work out great!


4. What has been the most ground breaking piece you’ve ever seen?

I can’t name just one. I’ve seen so many mind blowing movies in my life and nowadays I feel impressed and mind blown by some music videos and commercials. Latest piece that gave me a wow-moment was Rosalía – Malamente music video from the director collective named CANADA. Also director duo and artist The Blaze have done some great pieces and Hiro Murai never fails, his latest work “This is America” is great in many ways.


5. How important is music and sound to you as a visual artist?

Music is lyfe!!! I love music and I’m fanatic.
I like to use a lot of sounds in my videos and use editors that do that as well. That’s always really important in film and using sound and music or silence is as important in film than the visual part of it.


6. What is your next move?

My new entrepreneurship is my priority number one at the moment in work and I’m looking forward to new projects.


7. Any recommendations how to survive this darkness upon us right now?

Watch movies, go see art, go abroad and meet friends and share your feelings with them. And also changing everyday routines gives me energy and inspiration to do things.



Katti Meu – Viisaus